Yeah it's been a long time.....

But now in 2014, I shall blog! I shall blog about my reading challenge from Book Obsessed. It's fairly simple: read 52 books written by authors who were born in each state of the good ole US of A. Some people suggested books SET in each state which is a good suggestion as well.

I plan on reading lots of crap, throw away smutty novels as is my way.

First up:

Author: Nora Roberts 
Book: Dark Witch

Return of the mac...

What up homies? It's been a long time since I've rapped at cha and I have some new developments.

1. I still have a job. And I was reappointed. I could add some new and other exciting things here but since I am still waiting on some official notifications I can't really tell you. So I suppose, you will just have to wait another 9 months until I post again to find them out. 
2. I'm heading to the OP in April to work a tournament. I plan on driving with a friend who DOESN'T FLY. Let's hope that 20+ hours in a car each way makes us like each other more as opposed to inciting road trip rage. 
3. My aunt had cancer but doesn't anymore. Or rather, her scans show she doesn't and I pray that is correct. From Stage IV to none is pretty awesome. 
4. The health issue listed above caused me to come home and get checked out. Apparently my colon is quite nice and so are my breasts. Yay me! 
5. I bought a house, have three beagles and continue to live in sin. 

I plan on adding "write a blog post" on my to do list weekly. While you wait, here is a beautiful self portrait....

What up homie?

I've had "blog" written on my to do for weeks now and every time I look at it, it gives me the guilt. Of course, there are many things that have been on my to do list for weeks now that I haven't taken the time to cross out so I suppose this non-practicing Catholic guilt is just being picky on things that give me the feeling of guilt.


So a few updates:

I'm supposedly doing the Derbalife challenge but I'm not very good at it. I don't work out, or eat properly and I most certainly haven't been going to practice.

Speaking of practice, I probably haven't skated since February. Being sick (refer to previous pity party post), having gum graft #4, followed by more intensive gum graft #5 has been real shitty. In fact I'm super intimidated to go back after being gone so long. But I suppose if I were truly dedicated I would just hop up, put on my skates and just start all over right?

Spring time makes me antsy. REAL ANTSY. I don't want to work, I just want to make big sweeping changes in my life and say screw it and fuck you. <----self destructive behaviour

I'm looking to buy a house. Met with the mortgage lady and everything. It's scary but exciting and it's making me be really realistic about what I can afford. What happens if I find myself in a six months...one year...three? What can I afford? How much do I really WANT to be able to afford? Is it worth it? I suppose only I can decide that but the whole financial marriage to a property is scary. Especially  since I'm so hesitant and not very motivated to do the real life marriage leap.

Anyway, I'm gonna be thinking of something witty to write here.  Like so witty you'll pee yourself. Please start preparing.

Motivation...or lack thereof

I think I'm suffering from the SAD. Of course that is a self-diagnosis but still.

Being sick for a month also sapped all interest in everything including derby. I haven't skated since I don't remember when. Like a month I think. I really need to get back into it.

But I suppose that is hard to do when I lack the motivation, interest and drive? Doesn't that make you SAD too?

Twenty days later...

Time gets away from me sometimes and I realized that it had been a long time since I had written. These have been my observations over the past few weeks:

•  do people still use the word "bang" as a euphemism for having sex? Kinda like the old school knocking boots and bumping uglies? 
• do men really think about sex as much as magazines say they do? According to Snopes, most men do not but it's that misconception that you hear all the time.  I admit I think about sex, does that make me a man or mannish? 
• In San Diego, Tanq talked on and on about a gin gimlet. Now I want one but Tanq style, namely gin and some Rose's. It sounds delicious and rather intoxicating. 
• I really want to buy some boots that a girl who skates for a certain league and is really HOT wore during a certain event that happened last year in a certain town. here they are... of course, my leg would totally fill them out but can I pull them off? 
• I still despair at picking up my speed and passing that damn 25/5. 
• the sun is a cruel mistress. Today, it was super sunny with a beautiful cloudless blue sky. We had a high of 30 degrees today. Which is warmer then other days but....i want to skip outside in the warm sunshine only to slip on the ice and land in the snow. I raise a fist of rancor and shake it! 
• I have to do a lunchtime presentation on my experiences in Vermont tomorrow. i should probably prepare something for it....

What up homie? Happy 2011!

It's been a long time since I've rapped at 'cha hasn't it?I hope everything has been swell with you and yours. Well. Except for that asshole cat.

Anyway, one of my "goals" for this year is to blog more. Now, if you are being a bit of a jerk, this is where you are say "well shit. Considering you only posted like, twice in 2010, that shouldn't be too hard." to which I say "true."

So, here I am. I used to post lots of witty and funny shit of things that would happen to me. Of course, that was back in the single, I'm a bit of a lush/slut days. But, alas, now things run towards roller derby, work and a decided lack of confidence in my skating ability or, as some will say, more roller derby. Anyway, I will to add some fin and witty things that happen to me that do not involve making out with boys in bars.

Until then. please enjoy this little survey I have prepared for you. A meme if you will on my 2010. I'm off to San Diego in the morning for some librarian work things. I'll be back before you know it. It will be like I was never really here at all.


1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
Travel by train. That trip from New York to Vermont was something I would do again. I prefer it to flying actually.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I make some goals that I try to keep going all year. I have some holdovers and a few revised ones this year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope! No babies here!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope! We had a few deaths in the family but no one I was particularly close too.

5. What countries did you visit?
does ass backwards Arizona count?

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?

More self-confidence and maybe some more balls out bravery. I self-doubt in my personal life and that bums me out. 

7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

August 1. I got home from Vermont and had to make some decisions that I still think about.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?




Getting my book out and planning a successful regional tournament. These were not done by myself but they were great accomplishments. 

9. What was your biggest failure?


Giving up and not sticking things through. Insert no self-confidence and doubt here. 

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I had that concussion in February from falling on the ice but I think that's it.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

My party dress and petticoats. I wish this could read " my very own house"


12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My friends. For sticking with me.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Shit, I don't even want to talk about it.

14. Where did most of your money go?


Debt.  See goal #1.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My month on the East Coast. First Princeton, then NYC and DC and Vermont.

16. What song will always remind you of 2010?
Waka Waka. The spanish version. I first heard this song and in NYC and it makes me happy everytime. Bulletproof was a good one too.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
- happier or sadder? both
- richer or poorer? about the same I think.
- thinner or fatter? about the same. Or I at least I hope.


18. What do you wish you'd done more of?


Kept in touch with friends.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

Put up with stupid shit.

20. How did you spend the holidays?
Home in Arizona. Hung out then drove home. Not awesome.

21. Did you fall in love in 2010?

Not really.

22. How many one-night stands?
I read many books in one night. No hookups though. Smutty books should count though.

23. What was your favorite TV program?
The First 48 when I could watch it. I love true crime stories.

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No. I don't really hate. Just intensely dislike.

25. What was the best book you read?
I can't think of a particular one since I read so many. I know there was one I liked. Let me think.

26. What was your favorite film of this year?
Not a big movie watcher either. We're cheap. We just watched Slumdog and it was good.

27. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
Lazy. Like this survey.

28 Whom did you miss?
A couple of people; or rather those I lost touch with.

29. Who was the best new person you met?
Is it bad I can't think of anyone?

30. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.
Sometimes things don't go the way you expect. And what you think you want and what you get and/or have, may not what you thought you wanted. Making decisions is hard and you may not always know if you made the right ones (or the wrong) until later, until then, make the best of what you have.

The remains of the day....

I woke sometime last night and thought that yesterday was all a bad dream. One of those that has you wrapped up and emotionally overwhelmed.

I got back on Saturday night in not the best of conditions. Immersion was really rough. A very hard, stressful, overwhelming week where the length of my trip started to wear down on me and make me long to be home with RC.

In an effort to be more communicative while I was gone, I sent home postcards and jotted down little notes in a baby notebook that Spyboy and I found in New York. I thought it would help me remember the funny things that happened while I was gone so RC and I could catch up and I would have these funny stories to tell him. I figure I will turn those notes into blog postings to share with the one person who reads this although I am sure I will tell them to her in person anyway.

There is plenty that I can tell of my story over the last 3 weeks while I have been gone. Some funny, some good, some terribly sad. I suppose as I go along you will be able to tell the difference.